Peter Hammill - And Close As This 1986

  1. Too Many Of My Yesterdays
  2. Faith
  3. Empire Of Delight
  4. Silver
  5. Beside The One You Love
  6. Other Old Cliches
  7. Confidence
  8. Sleep Now


    Too Many Of My Yesterdays

    So many years ago I thought you were the one...
    who knows when people change, surrender into strangeness,
    adrift upon their lives, encompassed by the past;
    who knows which one becomes the last goodbye?
    Don't try to tell me nothing dies.
    Don't try to tell me nothing's changed,
    don't try to tell me nothing's new,
    too many of my yesterdays belong to you.
    
    Tell me about it, talk to me - I hear it coming, I feel it coming,
    the way you want this thing to be.
    You're only trading on our memories
    don't go and say you still love me.
    
    I shelved my broken heart, I put you from my mind,
    I got up from my knees, I picked up all my pieces,
    but seeing you again puts shakes into my soul.
    Just when I think I'm finally over you,
    don't come and show me that's not true.
    
    Oh, tell me about it, have your way; I see it coming, I hear it coming,
    I know what you're about to say.
    You've had too many of my yesterdays,
    and I don't want to fall again.
    
    You're trading on my memories, you're trading in a rosy past;
    you know I'm lost on stormy seas, but I still stand before the mast,
    beneath the stars and under sail towards horizons out of true....
    Behind the dance of seven veils I still see you....
    
    Tell me about it, have your way....
    
    Don't try to tell me nothing's changed,
    don't try to tell me nothing's new,
    too many of my yesterdays are lost in you.

    Faith

    Each moment is precious
    those that I spend with you are a prize -
    I count myself lucky just being alive
    while you're in my eyes.
    
    Seeing's believing and I believe in you
    I can't conceal it, just what I feel for you.
    Seeing's believing, I know that you'll see me through.
    I believe in you
    I have faith in you
    I put my faith in you, faith in you, faith in you.
    
    Doubt casts its shadow
    on every perfect plan that is made
    but I'll be beside you
    through those dark days -
    I'll be with you come what may...
    
    Don't let me down,
    now that I've fallen completely for you.

    Empire Of Delight

    Memory extends its empire, holds the frame
    but blurs the line... some other time invades the sense,
    a moment caught and lost, second sight.
    Suddenly I feel you near me worlds away and close as this;
    one stolen kiss upon my lips and
    the moment slips away in mid-flight.
    
    So many years ago, and now it's hard to recall
    just what you meant to me... still I wait, I'm patient,
    for the memory comes to me eventually.
    Here you are, and though you may soon be gone
    somehow the song still burns as bright:
    I felt it happen here tonight -
    here, in the empire of delight.
    
    Dream and ghost the world around me,
    you seem as real as ever you were...
    but in a blur your breath on my cheek
    has gone, and the evening come into night.
    
    So many years ago, and now it's hard to recall
    quite what you meant to me; still I wait, impatient,
    though the memory comes to me eventually.
    Here I am, forever caught up in this mystery
    and then, that moment when the fire ignites -
    I felt it happen here tonight,
    here, in the empire of delight.

    Silver

    You lay your plans, I take them as they come,
    I understand: we dance to different drums.
    It's not in any schoolbook, you're here to teach
    a lesson to us all... we play by different rule-books
    What you say, what you do,
    they're such different things, which is true?
    Now the telephone rings, Mephistopheles calling...
    Forty pieces for each lie you've told
    I hope your linings as they all unfold are silver
    
    Once we were friends in our idealist days,
    still, let's pretend, it's funny in a way
    that now our friendship's token you like to say
    I owe you everything - some debts remain unspoken.
    Double talk, double standards,
    you speak with two tongues, truth's abandoned
    all life has become one-way traffic to lucre
    You take your meetings on the cloth of gold,
    just down the river from the lives you've sold for silver.
    
    The silver crossed your palm, oh, can you see the future?
    I hope you'll know when you sold your soul.
    Argente, argent.
    
    All the things you've done will carry their own taint
    and a day will come when you chorus the complaint
    that your friends don't do you fairly; the back you turned,
    the shoulders that you shrugged now fit the blame quite squarely.
    What you want, what you need,
    your emotional greed all-consuming
    but no hearts will bleed and the coffers are empty.
    Yes, in the end you'd give it all away,
    but on the sockets of your eyes they lay the silver.

    Beside The One You Love

    You're helpless, entranced by the magical
    touch of her skin against yours, adrift -
    what else is there but this?
    It feels so sweet
    to fall asleep
    beside the one you love
    
    Remember this fireside, this quiet room,
    embers now flickering their last, like ghosts
    and still she holds you close
    Who else could know
    such afterglow
    beside the one you love?
    
    Someday the memory will come again
    as vivid as sensation now, and then
    there'll be no 'why' or 'when'...
    Who else could do
    these things to you
    beside the one you love?
    
    It feels so sweet
    to fall asleep
    beside the one you love.

    Other Old Cliches

    I might as well give you all there is,
    I might as well take it all the way:
    what's gone is forgotten, and anyway
    surely words alone could not wreck your day?
    The cake's not worth the candle, so they say....
    'Nothing ventured, nothing gained,
    no hard feelings', other old cliches.
    
    I've held back my feelings for so long
    while clutching at straws in the caravan -
    I'll say what I must and take it like a man,
    I've fixed my grin, I've raised a laugh,
    and after the back's been broken by the waiting game....
    'Mustn't grumble, can't complain,
    no hard feelings', other old cliches.
    
    Suddenly I see the scales falling from your eyes -
    this revelation surely comes as a surprise?
    Well, what d'you want? what d'you expect?
    what do you say?
    
    Can it really be so predictable?
    Now all of the secrets are given away,
    what words of forgiveness are there left to say?
    Hold me now, don't let go,
    hold me, soon there comes a price I cannot pay,
    I take the words back straight away,
    'I'm so sorry, I didn't mean it',
    beg forgiveness, beg and prey....
    blind self-pity, other old cliches.

    Confidence

    Behind the smile of confidence
    somewhere you'll find the wanted man
    blank-faced and wary of conversation with himself.
    Around the ring of confidence
    they're dancing to a different tune;
    the others seem so confident, why don't you take a leaf
    from the storm we're passing through?
    In confidence we sail across the seven seas
    to hide behind the veil - in confidence the key!
    'I'm in good form, I'm feeling fine,'
    responsibly how well you do -
    there's nothing I can say about
    the usual cocktail of public faith and private taboo.
    In confidence the trick is there for all to see -
    In conficence the key!
    
    Oh, don't anyone let the cat out of the bag,
    don't anyone admit to human frailty,
    Oh, someone let the cat out of the bag.
    Confidentially we learn we're not alone,
    in lack of confidence we're not alone.
    
    Behind the smile of confidence
    somewhere you'll find the mortal man
    waving his arms in some urgent secret semaphore...
    So I'll face the world with confidence,
    I'll toughen up my point of view,
    what better way to live a life,
    what other way can there be of seeing this thing through?
    In confidence the trick, in confidence the game,
    the thing that makes us tick -
    In confidence the flame!
    Inside the ring of confidence
    somewhere you'll find a stone-age man
    lost in the forest with darkness falling,
    striking his flint to hold back
    the roaring, the alien, the world.
    We are not alone.

    Sleep Now

    Sleep now, another day in your young lives is done,
    go to sleep now; tomorrow brave new worlds
    will surely come, go to sleep;
    you're such a wonder, such a mystery to me.
    Somewhere your future friends are lying as you are
    and your lovers right now are only crying babes in arms
    oh, the world turns under our feet, our lives are passing by
    in our sleep.
    
    So soon you'll be gone to that wide world
    the tunes of adulthood calling little girls.
    
    Remember, whatever else in life you find to doubt,
    do remember, although you hear him mostly in a shout,
    your father loves you
    as though he never knew the meaning of the words until just now.
    
    So soon you'll be gone to that wide world
    one tune of childhood I sing my little girls....
    
    Sleep now, one day I'll tell you how my life has been.
    Oh, so strange to think your eyes will fall on things
    that mine have never seen, these eyes that gently flicker
    in some lost childhood dream.
    Sleep now, safe and warm in the haven of your bed,
    go to sleep now.... although you won't remember what I've said,
    your father loves you
    as though he never knew the meaning of the words until just now,
    as though he never knew the meaning of the words.
    
    
    All songs written by Peter Hammill except 'Empire of Delight' by Emerson/Hammill Produced by Peter Hammill


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